So baby here's the bottom line.

2009-09-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

Loved the company. Loved the chat. Lets do it sometime again this weekend (:

2009-08-29T23:11:00.003+08:00

The stalk of rose that is still in my room reminded me of you one day. The petals were all dried up and wilted. I picked it up and realised the stalk broke into two.

It was precious to me. So i taped it back. I didnt want it to break cos i still wanted to keep it. However, no matter how much tape i use, it still broke into two. It wasnt like how it was when i first saw it.

That stalk was like us. If you know what i mean. It was beautiful at first but when it broke into two, it could not be fixed together again. No matter how much i tried, the stalk still remained broken.

I realised it was no use spending so much time fixing a broken stalk back together because in reality, it could not be fixed anymore.

2009-08-23T19:59:00.002+08:00

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear

2009-08-20T22:04:00.006+08:00

Just have a few words.

Hi Chinese Syllabus B. Welcome to my life ((: I may be harsh on you because i simply just cant stand the sight of you. You may not be a person. You're a subject. Still, i hate you!

Good-luck-Chelsea!

P.S You finally told me what you wanted to say all along. Thanks! (:

2009-08-18T22:30:00.006+08:00

So i had a rough day yesterday. Mugging in school probably paid off. I'm excited :-D Whoohoo! I plan to stay back everyday in school to study. Good idea? Maybe.

As usual, have problems sleeping so Fabian texted me a bedtime story. Its lame! Wait till you read it.

'Once upon a time, there was this young boy. He was very lame. His name was fabiano. He talked to this girl named chelsean. He thought he was damn funny by telling her he had a bedtime story to tell. But by the time he came up with one, chelsean went to sleep. The end.'

Thats Fabian's lame side for you. So not funny but i managed to sleep eventually. Not bad Fabian! Tell me more!

I'm tired so i decided to write a note to self from Glenn Frey (:

"When you remember those nights in his arms, you know you got to make up your mind. Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you or are you going back to the one you love?"

P.S Just ask. I will wait.
Goodnight.

2009-08-16T20:36:00.006+08:00

Is it all over between us? I'm still thinking of you. You might know that. I cant sit around and wait any longer. I've got to know where we stand. You are definitely not in the same place as i am. I cant stand hoping for something that will never happen. Is this the way it will end? Do we have to end it this way? Doesnt it matter to you at all?

I might not be able to do it. I'm still leading a life where a word from you can break me. Is it only me? Are you living in pain like i am? Tell me, wont you? I've been thinking. I cant go on like this. One of us has to close the whole chapter.

Is it too late for the both of us? Are there no more chances for us? If there isnt, let me know. So i can move on. I wanna know what's going through you head each time you hold me close to you. I want to know what you're feeling. If you ever come across this, do not hesitate to tell me the truth.

For the last time

P.S iloveyou.

2009-08-12T22:19:00.004+08:00

If i let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me

Will i ever see
You smiling back at me
How will i know
If i let you go

2009-08-11T21:18:00.004+08:00

So the three of us went to the airport to study. You, me and our friend. I had a jaunty mood because i was going to see you. Well, i felt kinda guilty because i was suppose to study instead of getting all excited.

We settled down at Terminal one and studied for about a few hours until it was time to head home. I knew i did not want the day to end so quickly. Even so, i had your belated birthday present that i wanted to give you. So you followed me home.

We sat on the stone table under my block and chatted for a while. I have to admit, i was rather afraid of you. Maybe, i was just shy? I hope you liked my little gift. It wasnt much and i didnt know what you wanted. However, i definitely knew your favourite brand (:

I totally lost track of time and it was way past my curfew. I just didnt care. I was glad i stayed longer. Something good came out of it anyway. It was something i would remember for the rest of my life. It was the nicest and most perfect day of my life. Did you know?

You said to me : "That was magical!"
Those were your exact words to me. I doubt you remember!

From this on, I knew.. It was the start of our 'fairytale life'
Question is, will the story ever continue?

P.S Date..Rings a bell?

2009-08-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

You might be thinking i'm a bitch/busted. You name it. Sorry but i hope i meant well. Dont get mad (:

P.S HBD (:

2009-08-09T19:57:00.003+08:00

I wanna see you again. Just once more. I need to see your face again. Be it tomorrow, the day after or the day after next. I want to see you again!

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

2009-08-08T22:41:00.009+08:00

Yesterday wasnt my day. Went to the airport to have lunch with Rachel. And studied. Uh huh, on National day eve eve. Yeah whatever! Dropped ice-lemon tea on my white dress because of my clumsy hands. It must be that mirror that i accidentically broke that day ): On top of that, i broke my hairband while i attempt to use it to comb my hair. Right choice huh? Okay sorry! Bimbo what? Sorry Chel, i owe you one okay? (: Dont tell others my dirty little secret.

So we bought new hairbands -_-

Rachel drying my dress (:

So i got up today. Feeling depressed. Must have had a little too many last night. I felt giggy but i definitely knew why. I felt better when i was drinking but the after effect simply sucks. Drinking doesnt solve problems okay, so dont try it! I wont say its entirely your fault. You had nothing to do with it. But my problems were all about you. I tried to forget you for just one day. I simply couldnt. Do you think of me at all? You seem like you're having fun. I guess not!

P.S imissyou.

2009-08-07T23:11:00.005+08:00

So i get high and misbehave, all because i couldn't have you. He said you're not worth my tears. But i think he's wrong.

2009-08-06T22:18:00.005+08:00

Today was more relax. Two teachers didnt turn up for class so we were given work to do. I seem to hate Literature now because i cant seem to write. Okay, i hope its a one day off thing. Yeah, mind was somewhere else.

I was just thinking. I knew you love Literature. I wanna love it cos you love it. Okay cheesy as it sounds but i'm speaking the truth. My mind wandered. Then i pictured your face. Tears rolled down my cheeks. Z looked at me.

'Miss him, don't you ?' She asked.
I didnt answer. She definitely knew.

Got up and went to the toilet. Then friends came to give me a hug. Saying it was okay. Of course it would be. Then again, i am stubborn. I refused to be okay.

Moving on..

2009-08-05T21:31:00.006+08:00

Hi my ex-readers. I've decided to blog again for some reason because i had this urge while i was on the way home on the bus. I'll tell you why later. Ignore the past post please and look forward for my present ones (:

Had our Prelim Science Practical today and it went pretty well, i hope. Had to burn this stupid peanut which by the way caught fire and did not extinguish. Panicked of course but other than that, i think i did okay. I'm not sure if i can score but maybe just a pass would be awesome. At least for now? Exams really get my mind off things. Somehow. But definitely not all the time. I was suppose to do some Geography but i changed my mind cos i wanted to post this. -_-

Anyway, why this now? Well on the way home today, I was reminiscing the pleasant times you and i had. Something that was unable to leave my memory. Honestly, i'm so fed up of my thoughts of you. But i'm stubborn, i admit. I saw someone today that looked just like you. Hair/eyes/ears. His features reminded me of how i used to look at you. I miss the way your eyes look at me. I know it says a thousand words. Thats pretty much how i fell in love with you. I've said it. I only wished you knew.

2009-01-23T21:38:00.003+08:00

So much for saying that things won't be awkward between us.
So much for not keeping mums about the whole damn thing.
So much for promising that we'll still be friends.
So much for all those long talks we had.
So much for not bearing a grudge.
So much for behaving normally.

I can go on but i choose not to.

2009-01-21T22:14:00.004+08:00

Stop pretending to be nice to me. Stop being a hypocrite. Seriously. It's not helping. You are only making yourself more miserable. Stop saying we'll still be friends because we ain't even talking. You still have that grudge against me. I know it! If you really hate my guts then tell me. Don't tell the others. They didn't hurt you. I did. So tell it to me. Don't pretend to act as if you are 'okay' with me. I know you aren't so stop bullshiting. Quit telling people nonsensical stories. FYI, they do not know the other side of the story. They only heard one fucking side of it.

A word of advice. Stop this childish behaviour. It'll help yourself and the others around you. Don't think i'm oblivious to the things that's happening around me. We've got a wide circle of friends and as you know, word do spread like wild fire, especially when some people's mouth are as big as a hippo. Just so you know, only YOU can put an end to this. You started all this so its only fair you end it.

2009-01-19T21:52:00.004+08:00

Its been a long long time since everything was cool. I should have seen it coming but i guess i'm not the only fool.

Well as you can see, we're still suffering the same fate. No changes between us. Not that i know of. There's just some things you ought to understand. Like seriously. Somehow we're like enemies of the century. Agree? Well yeah, everybody thinks so anyway. Sorry, no hard feelings alright (:

P.S I saw that bitch today. She had to cross my path. Like the bloody pavement was so freaking small.

2008-12-31T21:29:00.004+08:00

Let me just say this. I'm not happy with the way things are. First the bitch. Now the guys. OMG, when will this end? Its all my fault. You may not tell me in the eye but i know you're blaming me inside.

Probably not just my fault entirely. Its my friend's. Maybe i never should have that party in the first place. I should have just spend my sweet sixteen at home. Maybe that would have hurt lesser people to begin with. AND my dear friend, its your fault for bringing us closer. Sorry to put it in this manner but its the fact.

Should have just taken a different route two years ago? Should have just insisted on daddy sending me to my 'second home' every morning. Now is all too late for that Chelsea. No point harping on it. What can you do? Just keeping wishing these things didn't happen before?

Yeah keep wishing.

2008-12-30T16:24:00.004+08:00

HEY BIATCH! KISS YOUR ASS NEXT TIME (: HAVE A GOOD TASTE OF IT AND TELL ME HOW IT FELT. YOUR MOUTH WAS MEANT TO DO THAT ANYWAY.

HAVE FUN (:

2008-12-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

My life seemed so perfect when i had YOU in mind. But lately, i just dont feel the same anymore. I thought things would work out the way i wanted it to be. I guess i shouldn't expect so much from now on.

I finally told the truth. The rest is up to you to decide. I'm not giving up. At the same time, i'm not trying.

2008-12-21T19:02:00.004+08:00

1. Who was the last person to call you honey?
I'm so not gonna tell you.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
I don't do grocery shopping to begin with.

3. Are you single, or taken?
Good question. You tell me.

4. Has someone ever sang a song to you?
Nah. I'm waiting....

5. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Rachel and Chaiming (:

6. Who do you text the most?
HA! You don't wanna know. Trust me!

7. What color are your eyes?
Brown

8. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
For once, Just don't ask me questions i can't answer.

9. Who last said they loved you?
There you go again.

10. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep, duh! But unfortunately, i don't get much of it :(

11. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
If i knew what's gonna happen in the future, i'll tell you (:

12. What's the last letter of your middle name?
E

13. Is your hair good?
Think so. Just trimed it.

14. Any plans for tonight?
Nope. I wish.

15. Are you a gullible person?
I know of one person who thinks i am.

16. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
Dad thinks so.

17. Are you a generally happy person?
Not all the time.

2008-12-15T22:08:00.003+08:00

I hate what we are now. Like seriously! Please just give it some thought.

2008-12-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

HI EVERYONE

I miss blogging but somehow something's pulling me back. I can't seem to talk about normal stuff. The normal stuff i usually talk about suddenly turn into a secret. I can't say them anymore. At least not now.

Okay, what the heck? You won't understand.

Carpe Diem (:

2008-11-15T14:20:00.005+08:00

SO IT WAS Bryan's birthday yesterday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND! (: Went to his house for dinnerrr. He has two dogs and I'm beginning to like dogs even more.

I wanna have one of my own next time (:

2008-11-07T18:54:00.007+08:00

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IT was Michaela's b'day dinner. We went to hard rock cafe. The food portions were huge so we shared and the bill came up to a reasonable price. Not bad not bad (:

After our makan, we went to toys r'us to well, behave like kids again. We practically messed up the whole shop and they probably knew it was us cos we were the only ones in the shop. Good luck cleaning up guys. I never thought i'll be so meannn..

Moving on..
I'll let the pictures do the talking luh huh (:

2008-11-02T18:48:00.004+08:00

I feel free to think about anything right now since there's no more papers to sit for. I dread to think that i have difficult issues i must solve by the end of this year. I admit, i'm scared but i have to face it sooner or later. No idea how long this would take but i wished it'll vanish into thin air. Seriously, why me of all people?

Lets just say, my life is complicated.

2008-10-28T22:11:00.001+08:00

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do
Make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for awhile?
But you won’t let me

You upset me then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did
But I hate it

You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you for too long,
that’s wrong

You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me

2008-10-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

I just wanna say,

I have a life so go get your own (:

much love,
Chelsea (:

2008-10-24T22:16:00.003+08:00

Did the math paper today. All i can say it wasn't as bad as prelims. So was English. Paper 2 next thursday and I'm done for the year. I dread to say this but its time to prepare for next year :(

Out to celebrate Daddy's birthday after that. For a change, We went to the Singapore Flyer. We were lucky enough to have the capsule all to ourselves. Thanks to mummy's long time friend. The scenery was quite bare because of the constrution but it was a nice experience.

Dinner at Jalapeno's Pepper and home sweet home.

Now's back to study for paper two. Come on Chelsea, one more paper!

I'll put the pics another time luhh k? (:

2008-10-18T15:17:00.004+08:00

Our trip to Telok Blangah was a hot and tiring one but we enjoyed it. We managed to reach the top without water. So much for no mosquitos.

CLASSMATES.

OH OH! Congrats Claudia on your new baby sister (:

2008-10-15T19:39:00.004+08:00

I watched cats have sex today near the school gate, the one leading to the bridge. I was pretty amazed because i've never seen such a thing before. BUT Chai Ming had to make some sound so much so the cats heard her and they totally stopped whatever they were doing.

Geez, too bad, show's over!

2008-10-11T23:38:00.011+08:00

The day started off like this. Our Hari Raya visiting which we planned a few weeks back. Visited my fellow classmates' and teachers' house. The food was awesome. Never miss this occasion where food is concerned. Left early because i had to meet bestfriend as she turns 16 today. Came home a little late and so i decided to have dinner at her house.

Natalie seemed rather down so we gave her an unexpected birthday surprise (good thing she didn't suspect anything). Amelia, Bryan and I bought her a slice of chocolate cake knowing that she already have a birthday cake. We took a rather long time to get to her house as finding a lighter was a major problem. Went around searching for a stranger who had a lighter till we finally found one. I gave her the 'Kiss me' balloon because i felt bad that i have yet to finish her very special present. She was nice enough to give me a kiss though. Food was once again like heaven. BUT unfortuately, i forced myself to stop. Just had oreo cheese cake which Nat's mum baked for dinner and i was done. I realised you can't miss such good food next time. Especially when you're alive. I had to cos all these good food called my name on the same DAYY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT!! ((:

So kiss me.

Milk's from New Zealand.
I realised this picture was like 6 months ago (:

Her cousins and siblings (minus Bryann) (:
Her Family

2008-10-08T21:25:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was the trip to Serangoon. The 14 of us had to do this project on Deepavali. My job was to go around asking the shop vendors/customers questions on Deepavali. It wasn't an easy task but i've gotten used to it. At least i think i did. I came across some friendly people and some not so friendly ones. I've got a feel of what its like to be ignored. Trust me, not such a nice feeling luh huh!

Well this thing is of a good cause. We can skip lessons. Hope this would turn out well because we have to present it in front of the whole school. Oh did i forget to mention, we're doing a little video of us dancing in saris (",)

On the way to serangoon.

TODAY.
School's rather dull today. But i'm glad my friends help me cheer up.

Zakiah and her sari.

2008-10-06T21:56:00.001+08:00

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away

2008-10-03T20:30:00.002+08:00

So i finally got to meet the N level girls today. Class has been so empty without them. I'm getting used to it though. But when they come back, its back to Sec Five syllabus. So i rather them not come. HA, kidding (:

But honestly, its a waste of time going to school.

2008-09-29T20:14:00.008+08:00

I've got to get this off my chest.

First of all. I got into this 'special' class because i think God has his plans for me. Not for you to think how the hell i got in. You know what, face it! I'm already in and if you freaking think i'm not like the others, its fine. I'll prove to your fucking face i'm capable.

So you think that my usual friends are away for their Ns and that i have to be with my 'smart' friends cos i don't have a fucking choice? Well i do have a choice. In case you didn't know, i get along with everyone. You're not gonna stop me from liking the subject but i'm definitely gonna ask whoever is in-charge to get you off the class. You don't deserve to be human to begin with.

Last of all, I would like to thank you. You gave me the tenacity to work harder because at the end of next year, I'll make sure i'll have the last laugh.

LOVE,
CHELSEA ((:

2008-09-27T21:32:00.002+08:00

I think my blogging's gonna be a one week affair thing.

There's so many things i wanna say but i guess i have to keep my dirty little secret.

School's a bore. The 'N' level girls are on study break. I MISS THEM ): Unfortunately, the 14 of us still have to come to school and start on Sec five syllabus. Tell me if its a waste of time and effort? They still have to teach it again anyway.

The only thing i love about school is our taiti sessions. Just learned how to play last week and i regret it now cos im addicted to it. OH and not to forget, my nap time. I need sleep. Sadly, i don't get to sleep longer when its a weekend.

toddles.

2008-09-20T10:58:00.012+08:00

HELLO SUNSHINE
Okay i've got so much to say about the past week and i don't know where to start. How about from last Friday?

It was Rachel's birthday celebration at Billy Bombers at the new Cathay. The theme or dresscode was DRESSES. So we all came in dresses. Pretty ones i must say, especially Mikey's. The bill came up to 200+ but i guess its okay cos the food was heaven. We had milkshake and Baileys which probably cost us a bomb cos one glass was about $13 and we had 5 or 6 glasses. So that explains the hole in our pockets.

Long overdue pictures of LAST FRIDAY, 12th of September.

BEFORE

AFTER

The next day was out with the bestfriend, Magness. I just realised its been a long time since i called you that. Thank God i survived that day as she has a fickle mind and i've endured it for the longest time. She had $110 worth of Taka voucher and its ready to be spent of course. Walked and walked and walked even more and came across clothes/jackets that was worth $2000. Of course we were given those don't-touch-them-if-you-freaking-can't-afford-it stares. I guess we teens kind of get it alot. After much walking around in cirlces, she settled for a $165 heels. If i were her mother, i'll give her a hard time.

Moving on.. the days in school were okay. English lessons became movie time/taiti. What happen our usual lessons? You just don't give two hoots, do you? Even if we don't want to have lessons, you can insist? BUT NOO. Well, i guess thats the kind of attitude you people would give when it comes to a Normal Academic class. Sad i must say.

2008-09-11T20:23:00.005+08:00

So now its back to watching gossip girl online. Dad refused to get the mio tv. He thinks having cable in my room isn't enough for me? Well, its not my fault that starhub doesn't have it.

-_-

Math was bullshit. My mind was somewhere else. If i pass, i promise i'll throw you a flying kiss and it'll definitely make your day.

I obviously don't want it to happen, DUH!

2008-09-09T21:56:00.003+08:00

Recess was rather LONELY. The whole lot was not in school including some from 401. So we had the whole canteen to ourselves. ( Not like its a huge cafeteria or whattt?) Not much lessons was conducted today and its a very GOOD thing. Imagine if its like this everyday. Nah, then i'll become even more stupid and i can't prove that b*tch wrong.

O level math prelim tomorrow. I can't wait luhh :D

2008-09-08T21:30:00.003+08:00

I misss school like seriously. One week without the people who make me laugh most of the time can kill. However its back to business. Time to study. No more late night thinking about outings and well, maybe love? Okay, i'm not speaking for myself. I meant everyone (:

Trust me, everyone is just as confused when it comes to love. Agree? Yeah well, i shall just shut up now before it leads to something else.

Oh i almost forgot! The new season of Gossip Girl is now showing on mio TV and guess what, i dont have it! Its back to watching it online perhaps? Damn, thats if they have it.

2008-09-07T13:20:00.003+08:00

I guess all i have to say now is i'm sorry. This got me thinking a lot. You're such a nice person, its hard to tell you exactly how i feel. I don't want to make you upset. I picture myself sitting in front of you many times with your eyes looking into mine, waiting for an answer you wished for. I can sense something bad is gonna happen after that. I'm very much afraid. Afraid that you might not treat me the same afterwards. I like the way we are now and i dont ask for more. I've got so many things to tell you. I just dont know where to begin. AND if i do, what would your reaction be? Will you hate me even more?

Honestly, i've never gone through this in my life and i'm suprised by your words. I'm only 16 and i already have this difficult situation on my back. I don't blame you entirely. Maybe i've given you the wrong idea? For this, i apologise.

The reason why i'm saying everything here is cos i dont know how to face you. To be honest, i'm running away from this. I thought its the only way out. But i guess i'm wrong. We still have to talk things out and hopefully we can get to the bottom of this. I dont want to keep on holding. Its making me feel miserable. Its making both of us feel miserable. I really want to tell you, but before i do, can you promise me one thing?

Can things be the same like it used to?

2008-09-05T21:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY (:

We had our family dinner yesterday since Daddy is going to LA today. I swear the amount of food i ate can last me for the week but i guess not. Like i promised myself, i'll do my run tomorrow or whenever. But, i'll definitely do it.

So mummy turns 40 today. Sometimes she still behaves like she's trapped in a teenage body. BUT, not so much now and i kinda miss it. I guess daddy has something to do with it. Sorry?

So here's exactly what we did yesterday.

EAT (:

2008-09-01T13:28:00.007+08:00

THEHUMAN RACE! An unforgettable night and its really better that sex. Okay, if you're wondering, i've never done it before. BUT what i meant was that last night was better than watching sex videos, you know what i mean? Okay whatever. Its the first time Boys like Girls came to Singapore and i'm definitely not gonna miss them if they come again some time. Don't worry Clive Five, i still love you (:

I got in free without having to run 10km. Wonder how? I found the tag on the floor. Yes, count myself lucky. Natalie and i were playing hide and seek with those long strips. Kinda felt stupid cos we were looking down the whole time to see if any careless fellas drop their tags. Found one in the drain. In a way, it was rather easy to get in. You can easily ask those young at heart (don't wanna call them old people luh) who really think that this concert is a waste of their precious time, to kindly give you their tags for you to enter. Just as simple.

They were throwing ipod nanos and lots of other stuff like BLG posters and their water bottles to the freaking crowd. But, i got none. Almost caught the drum stick, damn it! I said this before but i'm gonna say it again. UTT is effing HOTT!

So i suggest, let the pictures do the talking (:

OMG UTT!
Joanne Peh

2008-08-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

THERE'S NO WAY I CAN TELL YOU HOW I FEEL !!

Try putting yourself in my shoes. Just TRY! Think about it. You might feel the same way too. Given a choice, i wouldn't want that day to come. Given a choice, i rather not breathe a word. Given a choice, i rather let the matter rest and pretend nothing happened. That will do us good. Questions are running into my head ad infinitum. I don't have answers to them. If you could help me, i'm more that glad.

2008-08-27T21:07:00.006+08:00

English prelim didn't go that well. I felt like i was reading French? I'm so gonna fail English for the first time. What a SHAME! And some people just can't wait to see me in such a sorry state. Don't worry, you won't get to, I promise.

Zakiah made a deal with me today. She dared me to tell this lady (sorry but i can't mention names) in a very polite way that it was really inconsiderate of her to ring an annoying bell while we had our English paper. According to Lia, the bell was meant to keep the class quiet. What ever happen to her mouth? And yes, i was on for it for five bucks ( It was $10 at first) Just so you know, i'll do it regardless if i get the money or not.

Carpe Diem
toodles

2008-08-24T18:25:00.003+08:00

The word 'grounded' sounds interesting isn't it? My weekend didn't go that well after all. I'm coped up at home with my ass on the sofa for hours without moving. With the weather like this, its hard to come out of the house anyway. Did some ironing and cleaning my huge mirror in the hall. Cleaned my boudoir and i can say it looks much neater than before. YAY ME!

Maybe staying at home isn't such a bad idea after all? NOT! I miss my hangout at parkway. Not surprising, I saw the whole world yesterday when i was there with mum and Darryl.

Mummy: Why is it that everywhere we go, you'd bump into your friends? Don't they go out with their parents?
ME: Mum, they're not grounded, you see? (gives a cheeky smile)

Honestly, going out with your parents isn't such a bad thing. Its been a rather long time since i did some decent shopping. So i dragged mother into Parkway to get me some some. I realise when i go out on my own, I get nothing. So you get my hint? (:

2008-08-23T13:07:00.009+08:00

Back on the keyboard once again.

RESULTS! I'm not gonna say much but i'm happy to say : I made it to Sec 5. Whoohoo! O level prelims is just next week. My enjoyment is now short-lived.

Recently KC had this night study thing which is on from 7 to 9 pm. In a way, its a good thing to be present because i know perfectly well that i would never lay a finger on my books in the night. The adults do know us oh too well. Computer/television/fridge/aircon/bed = distraction. Spending two nights in school seemed like fun. Had my lovely tutor with me, Naadira, who couldn't solve a 1 mark question. On top of that, i still call her my tutor (: Helped Rachel with circle questions/TOA CAH SOH and whatnots but she constantly talks about D all night and i'll never get fed-up with her 'D-crazyness'.

Told Chaiming this one night : Chai, I heard some Kc girls go to St pats for night study. Got their own school but go to a guy's school.
Chaiming:(cheeky smile) Is it? then we also can go luh.
(Rachel eavesdropping)
Rachel: Means we can go to Victoria school (laughs)

HUH?!?

No prizes for guessing, D might just be in school studying. You know as the saying goes: so close and yet so far. Don't worry Rachel Ann Marie Tay, it takes time babe (:

I can't wait till bloody Monday. Tell me abourit.

2008-08-17T17:44:00.012+08:00

PRELIMS = OVER

The pass few days have been tiring because of studying and the continual nagging from (you know who) But i'm glad to say that the nightmare is finally over and i can sit back and enjoy the sunset. ( Well i didn't get to when i was so coped up with my books)

Pass few days:
First of all, English Oral went OKAY! I didn't say it was that bad though. As long as i know i did fine, i'm not worrying. Got back some results on Friday. PASSED CHINESE. How awesome? Chelsea passed chinese. HA! Proved one teacher wrong. A few more to go. Look, I may be a little talkative and disobedient at times and i don't deny it. However, I wished i could say this in your face: Give me a chance to prove you wrong (: Did okay for social studies source base but i think i screwed up the essay part. Lets just see the outcome on Monday.

So guess now is the right time to be jolly. Cheers to no 'N' levels. Sorry guys, not rubbing it in but i'm just too gay at this very moment. To town with the through-train girls. Since we do not have any more exams at the moment, the 9 out of 14 of us decided to get to know a little more of each other. We had an unforgetable and awesome night. Should get together sometime again though.

Here are some pictures taken that night.

Before we met the rest.
Fish and Co: The Glass house

Mikey= Beauty and Brains (:
3 cheers to no N levels (:

She'll do the counting.
Yeah thats how much it came up to.

ZAKIAH

Not to forget i still have English and Math O level. But for now, enjoyment awaits me (:

OH I ALMOST FORGOT.
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MATTHEW (:

toodles (:

Its just you and me now (:

2008-08-09T16:12:00.006+08:00

I miss the internet. Haven't touched the keyboard for days. I'm finally on it again. Prelims are okay so far. Honestly, not confident at all. Those human beings will continue to look down on me. Not that they said it in front of my face, but somehow their facial expression shows. Well i can't help it if i'm slow. Just made that way. Can't except it? Too bad. BUT just wait huh? Like i said, i'll prove you heartless aliens wrong.

PROVEN

So yesterday was the National Day celebration. The three hours spent in school was rather worth it. We had fun didn't we? Just hope i don't lose my voice again.

Lunch with half of the clique at Bedok Macs and then to town with Bryan and Natalie after that. Watched 'The mummy'. The Dark Knight was sold out again though the movie was released weeks ago. There's always a next time (:

Till next time (:

2008-08-01T20:30:00.003+08:00

Prelims have just begun and i'm done with three papers. One and a half week more to go and i'm free. (Except that i need to pay more attention on the O level English and Math) I seriously don't want to take them again next year. Dropping math entirely is like heaven to me.

I'm grounded for two weeks and i feel like i'm in jail. Guess the books have became my best friend again.

It isn't too late to change your mind :)

2008-07-27T20:50:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD.

Guess what?Its been a week and I've not recovered yet. People are starting to notice my sexy voice. I don't know if its a good or a bad thing cos i'm starting to worry that it may be like this for the rest of my life. To think i forgot how my actual voice sound like.

How about i try not talking for one whole day? Maybe the teachers would be happy. Mummy said it'll work and my voice will be back to normal. But sorry guys, there's no way i can survive without opening my mouth (:

I promise myself not to use the com until after prelims. But i'll post if there's a need to.

toodles

2008-07-22T19:07:00.005+08:00

Thanks to you fella, now my voice is so very sexy. However, on the bright side, i think its damn nice (minus the coughing and the flu). You get to skip PE without producing an MC because its so obvious that i'm not faking it.

Left school early because i rather sleep and not waste time in school not paying attention. I must say my beauty sleep is very important to me.

Oh guess what? I've got cable in my room now. How cool is that? Now the family won't be fighting for the television. For those who already had theirs long time ago, be happy for me for once? :)

I'm waiting for you to make the first move

xoxo,
Chelsea

2008-07-20T21:44:00.004+08:00

Church this morning. Lunch in the afternoon. I think i'm falling ill. Great luh! Prelims are just round the corner and such things must happen to mee.

I'm gonna screw the person who passed me the germs. You know who you are (:

I'm tired.
toodles.

HEY YOU! I do miss you (:

2008-07-18T22:07:00.007+08:00

So i guess you've spoke your mind. You've said what you wanted to say. I get it. You wanted me to have a taste of my own medicine. I've tasted it. What else is there left to say? I'm sorry. I didn't know that a few words could be so hurtful. For this, i sincerely apologise. Now all i feel is people judging me and my character. Yes, they understand how you feel but do they understand how i feel? There are times i may be tactless. I say things that may be hurtful but i don't bloody realise it. I apologise. However, do you realise that you've said some things that may be hurtful to me too? I don't want to say it here because i think its just between the two of us and i don't wish for the world to see. I know all this small things was meant as a joke to you but it wasn't for me. Same goes for the things I've 'accidentally' said to you. It wasn't a joke either.

Honestly, i do feel for you when you tell me things about your family. I really hope that one day this nightmare of yours will vanish. Yes, our lives are totally different. I don't deny that. All i said was just a passing remark. I never knew you'd take it to heart. You wanted to know how was it like for me to feel that awful way you felt, there bingo! I feel it. I already do. I don't understand why we keep fighting. We've been buddies for thirteen years. I was still wearing my diaper, i think, when i got to know you. Well, i don't know about you. I was still drinking from a milk bottle. We do that during break time in nursery. Till now, we've not been apart. We've been studying in the same school for sixteen years. You say i'm luckier than you. The question is, are you lucky enough to have met me since you and i were three? I feel lucky. Not because i have such a great life you think i had so far but because i've met such an awesome friend. Well, i don't know how does this help in our friendship. Its reducing me to tears. Would you want to give up a thirteen-year friendship just like that? I know you are upset and utterly disappointed with me. I'm extremely sorry. Whatever i've said, i don't mean it. I hope you'll forget this and move on because its a pity to lose such a wonderful friend like you.

2008-07-16T21:08:00.004+08:00

Guess who i met while i was downstairs getting bubble tea? Teacher Rita. Its been days/months since i last saw her and she reminded me all over again that my Saturdays are now so free. I miss classes, come to think of it. Meeting the same old people every week at 4pm at the grand staircase. Coming to class at 4.15 or even later because some people just wouldn't come on time and want us to wait for them. (Kidding. But don't worry, i know i'm one of them) OMG, I miss her. I miss everyone. I miss going up to that room where we have our catechism class. I miss Teacher Annie's nagging. (Well, not that much luh, but still?) Okay, i shall stop talking about this already. Its gonna make me emotional.

Anyway, today was spent at Chua Chu Kang stadium. Its the last day of nationals so its best we give one another our support. Not like some people who think we go there to SEE something or someone else. Childish thinking woman! Okay, so our team didn't make it but lets thank the Lord for bringing us this far.

2008-07-14T17:45:00.004+08:00

GUESS WHAT? I HAD THE STUPID-EST DREAM A FEW DAYS AGO. I DREAMT THAT YOU CRIED IN FRONT OF US AND YOU WERE REALLY SORRY FOR THE WAY YOU'VE BEEN TREATING US. UNFORTUNATELY, IT WAS JUST A DREAM. I CAN IMAGINE IF YOU REALLY DID CRY.

So anyway, I had a really rough day today. What the fuck was i thinking? I'm confused luh! I do know what i want. Yes i do. BUT.. its not working. Sometimes close sometimes not. Am i hearing things correctly? Or is it just wishful thinking on my part?

2008-07-13T18:50:00.009+08:00

Chaiming's birthday celebration yesterday. Fish and Co for lunch/dinner. We watched 'Its a boy girl thing'. Funny show and no regrets watching. Each of us had a partner and we were supposed to wear the same colour. Mine was Zakiah. Unfortuately, my awesome partner had to leave for her tennis. SCREW TENNIS! So i was left alone with no one to hold hands with. OKay i'm kidding. That sounds so bleddy weird. Zakiah left halfway during the movie. Don't worry she didn't pay a cent. Amazing how one can do such thing. Your tennis luh, Zakiah! HAHAHA! :)

Its been a long time since i ate at fish and co. The last was probably when Grandpa was alive on his last birthday. Okay, so back to the topic. I didn't get to eat much BECAUSE I HAD TO MEET MOTHER AT PARKWAY BEFORE 8. So off i went without eating my fish.

Faiz the cameraman :)

There you are.
From the back.
Partners.
she was tired standing in her heels
While we wait to be seated.
WOW.
The birthday girl :)

Partners. Guess who's the odd one out?
LOVE

Couldn't take much pics cos I HAD TO LEAVE :(

2008-07-09T20:43:00.003+08:00

I'm lazy like a pig. I can't be bothered to do anything. Three tests for two consecutive days. I can't take stress, can you tell? Someone stab me now or push me down a building. Its a sin to actually think this way but can someone calm me down. PLEASE?

I can't stand the sight of her when I'm in school. Just looking at her make me not want to study. Tell me how should i continue like this? I tried to like her but it isn't working. She's making me dislike her even more. I tried to be nice even though she's so nasty yet she behaves like a 10-year old child. Childish i must say. Oh well. Help her!

2008-07-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was spent at the St Patrick's carnival. The dance and the singing made the whole thing alive. Abel and Faiz: The singing was funny but ya'll did a great job. Do it again some time :) AND Justin, teach me how to play the guitar :) whoohoo, so fun!

Everyone left and i assumed it was the end of the carnival though it was supposed to end at 5. It was only 4 plus then. Next up was the dunking of the school principal. Hilarious i tell you.

Town after that with the clique. This time its everyone so i call it THE REUNION. Natalie calls it her dream outing. Again we could not watch a movie because it was a Saturday night. So I've learned a lesson. No movies on Friday and Saturday nights. Book in advance is the only way.

So lets just hope our next reunion will be a better one. With our dream movie, promise? :)

2008-07-04T20:04:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD. MISS ME?

I've got something to say. I'm confused. I don't know what i want in life. Friends/Boys/My future job/Family and the list goes on. I ought to think about it now. First of all, FRIENDS. I'm happy having such awesome friends and best friends. I'm glad they've entered my life. I thank God for that. BOYS! What a joke? Want them but can't have them anyway. Not going to tell you what the reasons are cos ya'll will just laugh your heads off. However, i've said this umpteen times already. They're just not for me at the moment. Studies come first, agree? So all you sexy people out there who have someone to love right now, drop them like a hot potato. (This sentence didn't come from me, just so you know) Okay, whatever. I'm kidding. Treasure your other halfs, my friends. You know they mean the world to you :D For my future job, i want to follow my father's footsteps. But one problem, My height. I'm too short to become an air stewardess and i have this feeling i can no longer grow :( sad i know but thats just the way it is. How about being famous? That is something i would want to think about huh? FAMILY. Well, i asked my lao shi yesterday how many children she has and how she managed to be so thin after giving birth. She said dont ask her personal questions cos she won't answer them. I told her i ask her those qustions cos i want to have 10 children and want to know if i can be as thin as her next time. And guess what was her answer? A smile on her face. Guess she was so proud i called her thin?

Well thats all i have to say. Maybe there's moree and i'll tell you next time.
toddles.

2008-07-01T20:28:00.003+08:00

The weather has mood swings for some reason. It seems like its gonna rain and then the next moment the sun comes out and the dark clouds vanish?

PE was fun today. We should not run round the canal and play that game Ms S came up with.
WHOO..so fun!

YOU WERE MUCH IRRITATING TODAY! THOUGHT I SHOULD JUST LET YOU KNOW (:

2008-06-30T20:39:00.002+08:00

See I'm going through a situation that I can't help
Wanna get a little closer but
I promised myself that I would never give my heart up
Away again, I know it's hard
Butcha gotta understand it
The truth is all the hurt and the pain
And the shit that you get when you have it,
Ain't worth it
I've been there, I should know better
but I can't stop what I feel when you're next to me
I really think I finally found somebody that could be the one
But I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to love
I'm scared and I'm nervous
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad cause I know that you're the one

See the problem with relationships, in general,
Is that it's always a game
In the beginning they'll do anything to have you
And once they do, it's never the same
And I, know everyone out there can relate
So the question is One: do I really wanna trust this feeling?
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by?
Three: do you think it's only superficial?
Four: could it actually be different this time?

2008-06-29T20:11:00.005+08:00

Evening of Music, Dance and Drama was ?????

So lets just talk about today.

Mass in the morning. Lunch with the clique-ies at KFC after that. Its been a long time since i use the word 'Clique'. Well, MAYBE BECAUSE WE HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT LATELY! I'm so glad we did today after 14254684 years LUH!

So the five of us (Amelia, Bryan, Jolene, Natalie and Me) shared a cabbie and went to Alphonsus house. Oh Alphonsus was admitted to the hospital because of navel infection. I'm so glad he's at home now,resting! (yeah right :D) So we paid him a visit at his house since he was already discharged from the hospital. AND ALPHONSUS, you've grown a beard! Kidding :D I can't wait to see the hole in your belly! HAHAHAH!

Now i have blue-black marks on my legs because i fell down the stairs while going up to Alphonsus' room. It had to be me right? Oh well. So we chat. And chat some more. Something about pubic hair and blah blah blah?!? OKAYYY! Something we shouldn't talk about infront of the opposite sex but we did? We had fun anyway.

So home sweet home after a whole day of fun and my day has just became shitty.

Link to Amsterdam pics. Sorry for the delay. I've been a busy woman :D

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25875987@N03/sets/72157605771278635/show/

2008-06-26T22:00:00.006+08:00

YOUR BEST FRIEND SEEM A LOT NICER, CAN'T YOU JUST LEARN FROM HER? OH WELL.

I'm so not gonna talk about you from tomorrow onwards, UNLESS, there's interesting stuff to gossip because as you know i adore gossips. Whoohoo!

School sucked as all of you know! And the code of the day is, 'Learn your lesson'

CIAO. I love CAPS now for some stupid reason.

Ps. Pics of Amsterdam are uploaded. I'll put it sooon. JUST WAIT UH!

2008-06-25T21:53:00.005+08:00

WELL, YOU'RE MUCH NICER TODAY. FINISHED YOUR PERIOD, I GUESS? I HOPE SO! I'LL MAKE SURE YOU EAT YOUR WORDS! JUST SO YOU KNOW, I'M NOT FINISHED WITH YOU DARLING. LIKE I SAID, SAY WHAT YOU WANT THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER, IT DOESN'T HURT ME ANYWAY.

Enough about the human being.

HAPPY ONE MONTH CHAI MING AND FAIZ!

(I know your secret, muahahaha)

2008-06-24T20:39:00.006+08:00

I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG! TRUST ME, I WILL! ITS OKAY IF YOU THINK OF ME THAT WAY! I WON'T TAKE IT TO HEART. STICKS AND STONES CAN BREAK MY BONES BUT YOUR WORDS WILL NEVER HARM ME! AREN'T YOU GLAD I ACTUALLY KNOW THIS LINE? WOW! WELL THEN, BE GLAD MY FRIEND. BE PROUD BECAUSE I AM! DON'T PROMISE SOMETHING WITHOUT EVEN THINKING. YOU DARN DON'T KNOW THE DAMN FUTURE! DON'T MAKE ME DISLIKE YOU! OH WAIT, I FORGOT! YOU DON'T GIVE TWO HOOTS BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT WELL-LIKED ANYWAY! YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU CAN'T MESS WITH ME MY OLD FRIEND! SLEEP TIGHT TONIGHT, DON'T LET THE BED BUGS BITE!

2008-06-23T19:03:00.004+08:00

School's a waste of time, but i miss my fellas. Glad to have them back. The class is full of laughter and its hard to stop. So many things to talk about as we've not seen each other for ages. Gossips! Whoo.. i love gossips. Not that i gossip, but i hear them.

Can't wait for tomorrow (: No wait, there's PE and i'm lazy. Oh, it rhymes! Shut up luh, Chelsea!

2008-06-22T21:56:00.005+08:00

Well I'm back. Landed at 6 plus this morning that is! Dropped our luggage at home and went for mass. I tell you, i was sleeping while kneeling! That was how tired i was. Too bad the aircraft isn't so comfortable especially with infants crying their eyes out.

Trip was AWESOME! I ate snails. Yes, SNAILS! Its like fear factor, i tell you! It taste like rubber. Not that i've eaten rubber but it feels like it? I was forced to eat it anyway. Its not very cheap though. I mean, when you go to Amsterdam, you must have something to talk about when you come home so this is one of the topic i'm excited to tell. Unfortunately, the trip's rather short and we didn't have time to see the windmill in Holland. I suggested going to Holland Village to see the windmill. HAHAHA! Okay, whatever!

I'm tried. I don't think i can *yawns* blog any longer.

Till next time. Will upload the pics sooon.. From the pics, you'll roughly know what places i've visited rather than type it all down here. Its quite tedious man!

toodles.

School. I'm not looking forward to it! Who is?

2008-06-20T11:16:00.007+08:00

HEllO LOVE (:

Found a computer in the crew room. How nice! Its 5 something in the morning in Amsterdam and 11 something in the morning in Singapore. I seem to be following Singapore time for some reason. 11 plus is the time i usually wake up.

The first day was awesome. Went to the 'Red light District'. If you don't know, its girls in bikini standing in windows, waiting for men to come up to them and name their price. Well, its not so fasciating for mummy and I but it is for daddy and Darryl. Sadly, there weren't any cute guys along the way! :( AWWWW... Went to the Amsterdam Dungeon and Madam Tussard too. We had a fabulous time there. Will upload the awesome pictures when i get back.

Its the second day here and i'm so not going to waste it! Still gonna look out for hot and sexy guys along the way! Sometimes i dream of marrying a caucasian guy and my last name would be Mrs Very-long-surname. Too bad that's just an effing dream :(

toodles

2008-06-18T17:44:00.009+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET AMSTERDAM AND AMSTERDAM CAN'T WAIT TO MEET ME!

Its a rather short trip but i don't care. Homework can go die! Eee..i never knew i speak like that..like..nevermind! Better left unsaid! Back on Sunday morning! And then probably get back to homework OR leave it and not do it! (Don't i always do that?)

P.S : Sorry Die Hard Melodies i couldn't attend your performance. Next time okay? I'm soo missing the click five songs! :(

Enjoy the oldies while i'm gone (:

2008-06-17T17:16:00.002+08:00

Had three hours of A math tuition this morning! It was all worth it! At least i finished my holiday homework! Bought lunch and home sweet home.

I WENT JOGGING! I'm so proud of myself! Planned the jogging schedule yesterday and i'm gonna keep up to it (:

Tuesday-23 minutes (done)
Wednesday-25 minutes
Sunday-25 minutes

AMSTERDAM here i comeee (: And i'm not done packing!

Homework still undone. Brilliant huh?

2008-06-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

Needed help in chinese again. My cheena tutor refused to help me so i decided to turn to my new tutor, TAN CHAI MING! Her service is free of charge though. How thoughtful! THANK YOU CHAI MING, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN FAIZ DOES! KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY GIRL. HAHAHA! (: So anyway, she was fashionably late as usual like the last time. I thought i was worst! Got 4 compos done out of 5. On the way man! Hack the last one. ZGH would be ecstatic when she finds out i finished 4 compos though i know she thinks i won't even do one.

Talked and talked. Ate and ate. AND talked even more about stuff i didn't know of. But at least all of us know the truth now? But whatever it is, it takes time to realise. So let us all build a bridge and get over it!

SPOTTED!
C's mama aka my favourite aunt, walking down the roads of the famous Parkway Parade. Phew, glad i wasn't spotted by her (:
A's sister buying bubble tea and she didn't recognise me :( Is it because i wasn't in uniform?
W's cousin looking stoned in that computer shop or whatever its called luh!
L smoking alone. In a white dress and shades. But when she stood up to go into the washroom, it wasn't her. HA! The real L wore yellow and wasn't smoking!

Whoo so fun just talking about sightings (: I'm the new GG! Whatever luh chelsea!

2008-06-15T16:51:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY

Natalie and I went to Roxy Square to do our eyebrows. Was supposed to do our nails but on second thoughts no. School's gonna reopen next week and its a waste of money anyway. We stood outside the shop for a good half and hour or so because i couldn't decide whether i should do my nails or eyebrows. Sorry Nat i took so long to decide. You know you still love me (:

Nat went to church shortly after. Met up with Rachel, Junita, Chai Ming, Karina and the whole gang. Lepak-ed at parkway and had a good laugh too. I miss them oh so much. Suddenly, i miss school. Opps..major problem chelsea! Do you miss the teachers too?

I'm halfway done with English homework *gives herself a clap*

Done with uploading the pictures! Here's the link

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25875987@N03/sets/72157605587320536/show/

Today

Woke up bright and early for church. Since its Father's day, the family attended mass together or else i could have gone to the 11.15 mass. Got some stuff from the usual and home sweet home.

2008-06-14T11:39:00.004+08:00

I stay in love

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard to keep our love alive

If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby I stay in love with you

Guess i'm not friends with my books for now. So much for promising myself! Out later with Natalie (:

2008-06-13T19:34:00.005+08:00

Hello Darlings, i'm back!

There's nothing much to talk about Malaysia but i can tell you that the Roller Coaster was awesome! Its nothing compared to the States though. Obviously, the theme parks in the USA are sooo much better. Shopping was brilliant. Of course everything was effing cheap. Especially, Topshop and Mango. (My favourite hang-out for clothes) Bought myself some some (: AND now, i owe the loan shark(mother) money.

Its Friday the 13th my dears. Any bad luck come your way yet? I was greeted with tons of homework that i didn't know i had. So guess i have to leave my television for some other day to finish up that junk my teachers have given me. Managed to finish 4 inference questions for social studies though. Yeah, i'm an expert now for inference questions. That's what Ms W wants to hear anyway.

So its confirmed with a STAMP that we're going to Amsterdam next Wednesday. Honestly, when i heard the news, i wasn't sure if i was excited. That means i have to rush and finish up all the bloody homework before wednesday. Now tell me if i should be excited or not. I can't go out for goodness sake. Its been ages since i went to town, my second home. Nah, not really.

Okay, its homework week. I promise myself to have my butt on the chair at least five hours a day until i complete every single bit of homework. I swear i've never done this before not even when its exams.

Upload pictures sooonn (:

2008-06-08T22:08:00.004+08:00

Morning was spent in church. Off to meet Chai Ming after that. Unfortunately, she was fashionably late and i killed time by shopping for a new dress for the upcoming Evening of Music, Dance and Drama. Found nothing anyway. Tell me what fabulous clothes/dresses can you find at Parkway?

Settled for Mac Cafe. We had company by the way. Abel, Justin and Faiz joined us too. I managed to finish 2 out of 5 compositions. Yes i have FIVE compositions to finish. Not English, but CHINESE. Thanks to my cheena expert. Thanks Chai Ming! You're such a darling (: Okay, at least i did two. Completed! I'll figure out how to do the other three by myself. Hopefully i can come up with a solution fast.

To Malaysia Truly Asia tomorrow morning.
6.60am sharp at Golden Mile.
First stop: To Genting.
Wake up call: 5am (surely i need Click Five with their song Jenny, it may help me wake up)
Pray for me pretty please. That i may come home safely. You know there like accidents everywhere.

I will be back!
Thursday that is!
Toodles sweethearts (:
xoxo,
Chelsea Nathalia

2008-06-06T18:28:00.015+08:00

I don't see how my day can get any worst. Leaving for Genting and KL in two days and guess what? My camera is spoilt. What luck, yeah thanks!

Got these questions from someone's blog? I'M BORED, can you tell? Just enjoy!

1. Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?
Hell no! I can't last a minute without talking.

2. What is one thing you hear a lot?
What the fuck luh?

3. What's one thing that you want right now?
My camera to be repaired so i can bring it overseas?

4. Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
Pretty much i guess? He has a girlfriend now. A little too late huh?

5. What are you wearing?
Planet Hollywood T-shirt and shorts

6. What is your current mood?
Bored, damn it! Told you that already.

7. Do you like anyone right now?
Hmm..good question. For me to know and for you to find out :)

8. What color is your hair?
Dark brown and one strand of gold. No kidding!

9. Who were the last three people that sent you a text message?
Abel, Natalie and Chai Ming

10. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Not everyone, darling.

11. Do you have a wild side?
What say you?

12. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
Yes said that in point 4. Do i have to repeat?

13. What colour is your eyes?
Brown. I take after my mummy.

14. Do you ever wish you were famous?
This group of idiotic guys whom i don't know, shouted my name while i was walking home. Am i famous already?

15. What do your friends call you?
Bee Leng. They just love that name. I don't just so you know.

16. Song to be played at marriage?
Grow old with you by Adam Sandler

17. Badly wanted items for now?
A new phone, clothes and the list goes on.

18. Do you hate the last guy you texted?
Nah, what the hell?

19. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone and what was it about?
Chai Ming. Help me in chinese compo please? Sunday at Parkway Macs?

20. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Chai Ming and Rachel. They stayed over one night.

21. Do you wear makeup?
I guess?

22. Would you date/hook up with your brother's best friend?
I would if he's three years older and not three years younger than me.

23. Have you ever had a panic attack?
Always, during math.

24. First thing you did when you woke up?
Shut Kyle Patrick up when he was singing Jenny. (Its my alarm ring tone)

25. Suppose you see your boyfriend/ girlfriend kissing another person, what would you do?
Had your fun honey? No? Aww..thats too bad! You're not a very good kisser sweetheart. Work on it!

26. Can you type over 60 words per minute?
Time me and i'll tell you.

27. What did you wish your name was?
I love my name. Nobody in school has it anyway.

28. Are you dating the person you text the most?
Haha. NO! And if i was?

29. How tall are you?
I don't usually tell this to people. Opps?

30. What is your goal for this year?
To lose weight please? I've said this umpteen times already.

2008-06-03T15:44:00.004+08:00

I set my alarm at 6.30am and i only woke up at 7 this morning. My phone doesn't have the snooze button for some stupid reason. So i slept through without even realising that i have school today. Its results day so why bother to wake up when i know i'm not going to get my As?

Anyway, which school will call you back during the holidays to collect your results? Mine! Wow? So i cabbed to school thinking there was morning assembly because my councillors don't know either. And there wasn't. But was late for class anyway.

SO i did quite alright for combined science and humanities. Well, this is all i've gotten back so far. Tell me its a waste of time. The rest is a fail and i know that. Except for English, duh! Okay, so i can enjoy my holidays and think about the other results later. Come to think of it, i don't get to enjoy much since one week has gone past and the amount of homework given is enough to drive you insane. So i guess i better get started.

No maybe i should paint my nails first? guess what colour? And someone asked me to cut it when its the darn holidays. Oh don't worry, its not a councillor.

2008-06-02T15:54:00.007+08:00

Click Five with Natalie, Karina and the brother. Yesterday was an exciting yet tiring day. We started queueing at 4 and to our surprise, the queue was already LONG. That was not all. We had people cutting the freaking line. Now that was bad. Inconsiderate freaks. Next time come earlier luh bleddy! Why not bring your whole family and join the queue too?

Thankfully, we had a KC councillor in front of us. She complained to the security guard and he told those freaks off. The freaks might have thought what a b-i-t-c-h she was but they were more of a bitch anyway. Now i know how KC councillors are. Guess my head coucillor has taught them well. Wow, I'm proud. Next time if you ask me to pull my socks higher or cut my really long witch-like fingernails, i'll smile and do it gladly without cursing you under my breath ;)

The standing area or should i call it the mosh pit was packed with well, mostly girls. Except for Darryl and a few other guys, all of us were having fun. Darryl may be a fan but he's not the screaming type. Well, he shouldn't be i guess? Or you know..he might turn out to be something else? The mosh pit was crazy expecially when people kept fainting because there was no air. For all you know, people had my hair in their mouths while screaming. I washed it twice mind you with extra shampoo. Having long hair is a bit of a hassel sometimes, but i still love it although its taking me donkey years to grow to the length that i want.

Joey. He's mine

Ethan!

KYLE!

Kyle,Ben, Joey and some random guy
Ben on the floor?

I love drummers, don't you?

Joe
check out the backside
Stupid hand.

2008-06-01T13:28:00.004+08:00

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2008-05-31T13:02:00.007+08:00

Hello World. You know you miss me.

Exams are so over. The books are my ememies. It has been a stressful week and i have white hair. Okay, i'm exaggerating. If i do have white hair, why the hell would i tell you? Actually, I have one strand of gold hair. I wonder where it came from ..

Yesterday ~~(all my troubles seem so far away)~~

Yeah right! To town with the bestfriend. Its been so long since we went out. Jeremy, Jonathan and Charles joined us too. (I call them the Subway peeps) Who said you need to work to hang out? SUPPOSED to watch a movie but it was a Friday night for goodness sake? All was full house and there goes our Sex and the City. Not that i'm of age to watch but come on, sex is sex! What the hell?

We settled for dinner at Cafe Cartel. Talking about not watching a movie because it was full house, the cafe was full too. So what we did? WAIT LUH! For 40 minutes, mind you? Just to get a table of 5? Dinner was hilarious. I almost choked on my food. Thanks to Charles. Its okay, i give you chance since its your farewell dinner. Have fun in the Army (:

To my favourite hang out later. (Parkway Parade) Meeting Natalie to get her Click Five ticket. I hope its not a little too late. TOMORROW! I can't wait, can you tell?

Saturdays are empty now. Oh, teacher Rita just messaged me to tell me she misses me. Awww, i've been missed. I miss her too. Till we meet agian.

2008-05-25T23:00:00.009+08:00

Congratulations to all Holy Family confirmants. I will miss you guys. One thing's for sure, this WON'T be the last time we're going to see each other. Promise? Chalet/BBQ during the hols :)

Was nervous at first especially when i had to announce my confirmation name to the whole congregation. However when it came to the next person, the microphone was not needed. Alphonsus said the first three confirmants were special. Okay, if you say so? I am SPECIAL!

From Con 1 where boys and girls refuse to mix and get to know each other better to Con 2 where we had our first confirmation camp and boys and girls still refuse to communicate to Con 3 where Bryan Ulric Sta Maria came into our class for the first time and promised to close the 'red sea' and finally to Con 4 where we had our last confirmation camp and all came to class so often after that because the teachers threatened to tell the priest not to confirm us if we don't attend class. Still, those who hardly attend class still got confirmed. So much for threatening! But whatever. We're confirmed (: YAY! And i'm glad 'the red sea days' are over.

A night to remember.

FAMILY.
W=White
Our eyes are cocked. But who cares?

My lovely teacher Rita. FRIENDS.Thanks for coming (:
Hey Everyone its 'When you see me smile!' haha
MATTHEW! Your mother's so Nice! Thank her for meee.
boys/guys?
CHAI MING. I know your secret
My Pro photographer with his..nevermind!
Girlfriend/bestfriend

A big thank you to my Cathechism teachers, though we find you a nag sometimes but it was all worth it! Thanks for seeing us through confirmation. Hope you like the roses!

xoxo,
Chelsea Nathalia (:

2008-05-23T21:45:00.004+08:00

Skipped school because i was 'sick'. I spent the whole day watching MTV and reading the 5th book of gossip girl. Oh not to forget, i forced myself to read my Literature text since i'm sitting for the paper next tuesday. At least i tried? Give me some credit? Okay in short, staying at home didn't help me cheer up. I should have gone out.

Tomorrow would be better. I'm sure. Gonna do some shopping in town with Mother. Last minute shopping for Sunday, that is? Its in two days and i'm nervous. Perhaps get some new clothes too? Omg, i'm running out of clothing.

2008-05-22T16:49:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Zakiah! (:

Omg, i've said this umpteen times already. Instead of a cake, we bought 16 donuts. A new style of celebrating one's birthday. Don't be silly and ask me why 16 donuts. The birthday girl was running a high fever. You poor thing. Its okay, the donut did make you feel much better aye? Oh and Man U won the f-ing title. You should be glad.

School's a bore and i hate being the chairperson. But its fun when i don't do my job and leave it to the vice-chair to handle (smiles cheekily). I love my two vice-chair. They're soo sweet though i know they feel like killing me sometimes. You know you love mee. I promise i'll do my best, okay?

Yeah right!

David Cook won. He made my day, thank you very much. Mummy messaged me this morning to tell me the result. She (well i cant mention names) told us to get out of the classroom because we were so darn excited that Cook won. She doesn't like Cook. Awww..too bad. She prefers frying.

2008-05-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was sort of like a family-bonding time. Watched two movies, Iron Man and Made of Honour. Iron man was okay. The first part was boring. I swear it almost put me to lala land. Yet, after a while, it was alright, i guess? Made of honour was the-bomb. Please Darlings, go watch it! Its funny yet touching, well..that's how i felt.

I've finally watched episode 16 of Gossip Girl. Yes, i get it! I'm slow. Whatever?!? No thanks to my f-ing computer. Thanks to Daddy's laptop? Gosh, how i wish it was mine. Yeah, keep wishing!

Alright, i have to constantly remind myself that my effing examinations aren't over yet and i have to get back to my books. Poor thing, they're looking at me so pathetically.

2008-05-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

Would you like to hear the joke of the day?

Sorry Zakiah, i can't help it. Please don't kill me. Okay here goes.

Qn: How would you destarch a plant?
Ans: Place the potted plant in darkness for 2 bloody days.

This was Zakiah's answer for one of the questions in the photosynthesis worksheet given to us for homework. Being lazy as always, we copied her work and spotted her mistake. Imagine if she were to give 'that' answer? In a way, it was wrong to copy but at the same time, it was a good thing. So you see, copying isn't such a bad thing after all, right?

2008-05-15T18:15:00.006+08:00

I never should have opened that file in the first effing place. Now i feel like stepping on the computer screen real hard like those cartoon characters do. I swear, the computer hates me.

My throat hurts. Could i have a throat infection? Maybe that will prevent me from eating. I have to stop eating so much. I've stop running anyway so i feel fat.

Oh speaking about running, my juniors gave me that why-the-hell-you-left-the-team-when-we-need-you-now kind of face when i walked past them after school. Have fun with coach guys. Even if i left or not makes no difference. Agree? I know you'd think the same way (:

So next on my to-do list is running/jogging/sprinting. Whatever. As long as i lose a few calories.

2008-05-14T21:43:00.005+08:00

Guess who i met in the bus today on the way home? Teacher Rita. Well, she took half day from work for don't know what reason. I kinda forgot. I feel rather sad. I think i'm gonna miss her. She keeps asking me to come to her house. Maybe she'll teach me more about GOD rather than in church cos i hardly listen. Hmm.. talk about being confirmed in two weeks time?

I'm confused. Tell me abourit!

Whatever. Back to gossip girls now.
Goodbye.

2008-05-13T20:25:00.004+08:00

Well, i can finally relax. Okay not that much though. It ain't over yet missy!

I've finally finished 13 episodes of Gossip girls. Thanks Karina, again! And stop telling me the story. I want to watch it myself (: Guess i have to watch the rest online? I just can't get enough of it. Sorry? If only it was my Literature text.

You know, sometimes i wonder what it feels like to be a child again. Its so sad that time passes so fast and before you know it, its Chrismas again.

I wish:
-I could stay a toddler forever (well, thats Daddy's wish anyway)
-I could kiss Joey Zehr (the drummer of Click five in case you didn't know) on the cheek when i see him
-my appetite wasn't so big
-I could fall sick so that i'll lose my appetite and not eat
-I could lose 1kg. Just 1kg will do
-we didn't have O levels
-I could tell Alex Ferguson to leave Man U

Someone send me a fairy godmother?

2008-05-12T21:50:00.005+08:00

So Man U won the Premiership. No prizes for guessing who will win the Champions League.

English was..? I'm not surprised if i fail this time. I tried?

Geography tomorrow. Did i mention that i can't wait? Its has become my favourite subject.

The family plans to go to KL and Genting this June. Well let's just hope i don't have to go back to school.

Up-coming events
-The stressful examinations
-Confirmation
-CLICK FIVE CONCERT
-Malaysia trip?
-Amsterdam trip? (maybe?)

Enough already. This child still needs to study.

2008-05-10T14:59:00.005+08:00

Its been a long time since i logged in. Maybe there wasn't anything interesting to gossip about anyway.

English Oral went well. I got the teacher that i didn't want to have in the first effing place. That was a sign..hmmm.. Anyway, my trick was to keep talking and smiling. Smile and you'll make your examiner's day worthwhile. Whatever, i just read this line somewhere? At least i did the right thing by saying 'Good Morning' when its still before 12? I hear they actually minus your marks if you don't greet them the right way. Okay, whatever.

So remedial was cancelled, well, kind of. To town with Nat. We kinda got there a little later than expected because Nat's nets card got stuck in the translink machine at parkway. (You know the one where you top up your Ezlink card?) Yeah whatever that is. We had to turn around continuously, telling the people behind us that the effing machine is spoilt cos it has eaten up Nat's nets card. With no nets, how the hell to go shopping? The card did come out eventually with the help of prayers. Yeah we did miss a few 36 buses, no doubt.

Watched 'What happens in Vegas'. I swear i can watch that show again no matter how much it cost me. Its worth it i tell you.

Shopped for our confirmation stuff and at last we finally got something. Now my mind is at ease. Just looking forward to the big day. Cabbed home as usual.

2008-05-05T18:23:00.003+08:00

Today's rather dull and i wished i skipped school. Surprisingly, i didn't sleep in class (first time) Perhaps i had enough sleep the night before? Come to think of it, I didn't. I couldn't sleep. I woke up right after the alarm rang. Unusual of me to do so but i did. See the change? okay, maybee not.

My darling Karina FINALLY brought the 2nd book of gossip girls to school and on top of that, she brought the DVDs too. Everyone's like at the fourth or fifth book and i'm still at the second. No thanks to borders/popular for not having the book.

To Tampines for dinner? Hope i don't see Amal there (: She claims its her hometown.

2008-05-02T21:44:00.003+08:00

Mummy's still talking to me but i sense a change in her attitude towards me. Hmm..get over it girl, its just a game.

Yesterday.

Studied and went for Ascension mass with the family. Yet again, another sibling of grandpa passed away on Wednesday. Went to the wake and met all those relatives/cousins we only meet on occasions like funerals and weddings. Oh and guess what? The wake is held at Rachel's block. The world's really small. Okay, not really! I didn't know until i saw Aunty Katherine (her mother) So i guess i might see her tomorrow or Sunday? Eee.. seeing her five days a week is enough.

Jokes darling. You know you love me (:

Lets not talk about today shall we? Tomorrow would be better for sure.

2008-04-30T21:56:00.003+08:00

Finally, a day break away from school tomorrow. You don't know how gay i am. I've waited for a day when i can not go to school. Away from those awful naggers who keeps saying i'm easily distracted. Okay, i don't disagree on that but somehow i can't help it. Sorry?

Mother has been sick. Probably worried sick, i must say! The game's tonight and if Liverpool wins, she said she'll disown me. For good.

Okay,so we shall see the outcome.

To hit the books tomorrow or not to?

2008-04-27T20:45:00.004+08:00

Today wasn't so dull than the usual Sundays. Tuition first thing in the morning followed by the Confirmation Mass at Our Lady of Perpetual Succour. Attended mass there for the first time. Never been there before but i must say i still prefer Holy Family :) opps? At least i get to sit down when my turn comes. Those wedges kill, really!

Its interesting to see almost the whole congregation in white. Wait a minute, they don't have a choice, do they? AH Well, its less than a month away(confirmation) and i haven't got anything to wear. Seeing all the girls in their beautiful white dresses makes me wanna rip it off them (:

NAH, on second thoughts. NO! Mummy, time to go shopping! I promise you won't regret it. I know you'll be in a good mood if Liverpool wins on Wednesday. So that means my dress would have to cost 3 figures, Set? Eee, i sound so spoilt! Nah, I have faith in Chelsea.

Some random pictures with the newly-confirmed teens. Its a few, i know but they're still pictures.
Okay shut up Chelseaa!

2008-04-25T21:51:00.004+08:00

Chinese was alright. I actually understood the questions. 3 cheers for me! I know i screwed oral. Spoke in English. Now you know why i can't speak chinese for peanuts? I can speak Malay better, trust me!

Parkway for lunch at Macs. They ONLY sold double cheese burger and coke. Its seems that the machines broke down and that was ALL they had. No fries my dears! No wonder the place was so peaceful. Okay, not really!

Its the weekends and why do i feel so moody? Come to think of it, the weekends isn't that great to me after all.

Frank Lampard lost his mother. Lets just say the title goes to Man U.

2008-04-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

CHINESE!

Tomorrow is CHEENA day. Three papers plus oral in a day? Wish me luck please? i need all the luck in the world for my most hated subject (:

I'm still waiting for the 2nd book of gossip girls *hinting*

2008-04-23T19:22:00.005+08:00

Dinner with the family at Secret Recipe. Thought we might want to try something different this year. I didn't eat pasta this time. Instead i tried the Vietnaminese beef noodles. It isn't that bad. At least its healthier than Pasta? Well, thanks gguys :)

THANKS darlings for the wishes/gifts/birthday song and the lists goes on...
You know you love me (:

( sorry into gosssip girls now)

2008-04-22T19:25:00.005+08:00

She's being a bitch for some reason. She never smiles, never talk nicely. So what? You expect me to like you?

Chinese was boring. Friday is the paper and we're still taking it lightly. Well you know what? We only have one person to blame. Too bad i'm not gonna tell you. Go figure it out.

Looks like i have to spend my birthday on the track tomorrow. How lovely, i know! My birthday present from coach. Thanks but no thanks :P

LIVERPOOL VS CHELSEA tonight. Mummy, you're gonna cry, trust me :)

You guys have been pestering me for the photos of the party so here it is.
Click the link below. ENJOY! :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25875987@N03/sets/72157604656243726/show/

P.S : Copy and paste whatever picture you want okay? I can't sent it through MSN